Quite the Journey Together
A week less than 9 months ago, my good friend and her husband sat with me on my guest bedroom floor. They had just flown in from Minnesota for a visit, and we were catching up. At one point, my...
View ArticleMothers Day is great … for Mothers
It’s weird to be here. Where is here? Mothers Day. I’m a mother–on Mothers Day. Last year, I was not a mother on Mothers Day, and that made me quite sad. And angry. And bitter. It was not a good day,...
View ArticleTED talk: Glad I watched
Three weeks ago, my pastor sent me a link to a TED talk, saying that I might be interested. Today I finally took the time to watch it. He had said he was hooked by 8 minutes in. At two minutes in, I...
View ArticleThe Luxury of an Oops
Ever since I miscarried last week, I’ve had this phrase rolling through my mind: Luxury of an Oops It has occurred to me that having an “oops” pregnancy, while unexpected and kinda stressful, is...
View ArticleI Don’t Want to Want It
“I just really don’t want to want it again, until I get it, and then I want to want it fully. Make sense?” I muttered this to my husband as we both attempted to drift to sleep, each battling our own...
View ArticleTrusting in the Midst of Grief
These past two weeks have been a roller coaster. We found out we were pregnant on January 5, much to our surprise considering our history of struggling to conceive. And thus we began the wonderful...
View ArticleOh How Life Has Changed
Mother’s Day in 2009 … I purposefully scheduled a weekend getaway so as to not have to be at church. (Granted, I mixed up my dates, and we actually had our getaway the weekend before Mother’s Day, so I...
View Article25 Weeks: The Gift of Infertility
There I was, kissing my two year old angel goodbye, and struggling to climb semi gracefully out of the car. At 25 weeks pregnant, “graceful” is quickly becoming a thing of the past. I balanced a...
View ArticleThings I’ll Miss
In an attempt to remind myself that this pregnancy really is nearing its end (whether I believe that truth right now or not), I’m going to try to list all the things I’ll miss about being pregnant....
View ArticleMother’s Day: Here It Is Again
Mother’s Day used to hurt my heart. Over three years and two kids later … it still kinda does. Mother’s Day hurts my heart because I remember. I remember how it felt to wake up on that dreadful...
View ArticleI’ve Been Half-Lying
“God is sovereign!” We’ve all said it. Complain, complain, critique, question, complain … “But it’s all good–God is sovereign!” I’m know I’m guilty of it. Saying that TRUTH but not wholeheartedly...
View ArticleMarked with Infertility
Bear with me, it has been a while. My Trying to Conceive history: Easy conception in December of 2006 and then a 10 week “missed” miscarriage. D&C. Doctor discovered a septate in my uterus. Nurse...
View ArticleDealing With Loss
kristinlindeen:My husband’s heart echoes my own …. Originally posted on Erik Lindeen: Last week, my wife and I experienced the pain and loss of our fourth miscarriage. To be honest, I’m still coming to...
View ArticleNow I Understand the “Oops”
For years, as a woman who struggled to successfully conceive a child, I struggled mightily with “The Oops.” I just didn’t understand how someone could have an oops, cry over an oops, be shocked by the...
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